Friday, January 9, 2009

Mixed Emotion

Today, I am not feeling good a lot of things happen in just single hours. I feel sad and I feel bad. Sigh! Honestly, it’s not my intention to hurt feelings of others. But unfortunately, I made their heart broken because of what I did which really hated myself. I am so stupid doing that kind of stuff!

(1) Hurting our mother, for me, is not really good. It’s a big sin. After all the care sasaktan mo lang siya, napakasama mong anak. Tsk! Tsk! Tsk! Nagawa kong saktan ang damdamin ng aking pinakamamahal na Ina (my mother) I hurt her feelings. I made her cry. I am feeling bad for what I’ve done to her. I felt sad anyway. Before, ayaw kong makita na umiiyak siya because of my two elder brother but now ako ang nagpapaiyak sa kanya. It’s really hurt for me. I don’t intend to hurt her feelings. I was shocked when I said something that made her cry. Damn Mark! You’re such a bad boy, Mark!

Kaya naman, I made a poem and dedicated it to my mother.
I am sorry, Ma! And I’m glad that my mother and I were ok now. Thanks!

(2) After that, I thought everything is going well. But I was wrong. I made a mistake yesterday and it is not my intention that hurting (again?) someone’s heart. Sigh! I can’t sleep last night because of what I’ve done. Naiinis ako sa sarili ko dahil I did something that makes someones feel uncomfortable or even sad. Hindi ako nag-iisip na may masasaktan pala ako sa ginawa ko, which I hate myself. I am taking care of someone’s feelings but what I did was… Sigh! Now, I realize that pag gumawa ka ng isang bagay or even posting here in blogosphere you must to think it not just once but twice. Kasi may mga taong nagiging sensitive of the things that they saw on your site, write-ups or something like that.

For me, natuwa lang ako sa mga t-shirts na may mga statement like; “ako ang nagsaing pero iba ang kumain kasi diet ako!” something like that. I won’t post the picture (tshirt yon na may printed na kakaiba...ahh basta ayoko ng ipost) here anymore that made them disappointed. It’s something na ikakatuwa sa mga mata ng iba and also it is not good in the eyes of others, too! And that is why I am so sad of being insensitive about it. I hurt someone’s heart and I was so depress about it. I will just hope that it will be fine today or else it makes me feel sad all day.
I am sorry for being insensitive.
I am sorry for being immature.
I am sorry for hurting you.
I am sorry for disappointing you.
I hope you will accept my sorry.

Sorry guys, umaatake na naman ang pagka-emotero ko. Sina pareng PAJAY at AMOR kasi e nahawa tuloy ako…at teka si DHIANZ din pala... Hehehe sisihin ba sila? PEACE!!! Mixed emotion ang nararamdaman ko sa kasalukuyan ayaw ko na muna sanang mag-emo post but I am here writing and expressing what I feel inside I am hurt also for what I’ve done lately. I feel like a bomb na sasabog makalipas ang ilang segundo. Wala akong pagbuhusan ng nararamdaman so I decided to go to my own world (huh? may sariling mundo ba ako?) pero ganon pa rin ang nararamdaman ko. Kaya dito ko na lang binuhos kung anuman ang feelings ko ngayon. Parang gusto ko nang maniwala na ang lahat ng saya na pinagdaanan ko lately ay may kapalit. At ito nga yon siguro ang kapalit...ang maging malungkot! Sigh!

God help me!

-MarcoPaolo-

45 comments:

  1. oops. batet mo pinaiyak ang iyok ma-dear? bad cheetah. hehe. :) cher up you! maya ulit ako koment. di ko masyadong binasa... trabaho muna.

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    JOSHMARIE:
    Magtrabaho ka muna... hehehe...

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  3. anong meron sa hangin? palit palitan ang emo... akoh ren nag-emo last time eh bat dehinz akoh special mention?...lolz... hey u ok lang bah?... i wish i could do somethin' to make u feel better... i wish i could take away d' pain dat u feelin' right now... naks naman... syempre luvs kitah... aysowz... hmnnnzz... yeah alam koh 'ung sa mom moh kc sabi moh... pero hey.. don't be too hard on urself.. dehinz moh naman sinasadya 'un... 'ur not bad... again... 'ur juz bein' hard on urself... tao lang tayo... and we make mistakes... pero at least inaccept moh ang pagkakamali moh and u are sori about it... nde bah... and sino 'ung pangalawah na nasaktan moh??? curious akoh... hmnnnzzz.... pero hey.... i dunno wat would be d' right word to say to you.... hayz.... prayers na lang i guess... 'un lang atah masasabi koh... labas moh sa kanyah sama nang loob moh.... dme kong sinabi kay God when i went to church nung nakaraan... matagal tagal den kmeng nag-usap... like sabi koh i felt better after that at parang nabunutan tlgah akoh nang tinik sa puso koh... u were one of d' people i prayed for... yeah... how sweet devah?..lolz... pero seryoso... tanong moh pa si God... so 'unz... hayz... there are times den na ganyan akoh... lately nga lang devah? but ngaun mejo bz so i don't have time to think about my problems... nd when i went to church pinaubaya koh na sa kanyah muna problema koh... napapagod na akoh dalhin... dumudugo na ang puso koh minsan... nde koh ma-kontrol ang mundo koh... nde koh kontrol ang mga posibleng mangyari.. nde koh kontrol ang situation... things happen...Syah lang tlgah ang may kontrol sa lahat.... sendali... naputol thoughts koh.... kaninong dog yan sa pixs moh?... may dog kayoh? sabi moh walah devah.... neweiz... hmmnnzzz.... *hugzness* na lang... lolz... mark... ayan... seryoso akoh... mark sinabi koh.. wehe... hwag ganyan... easy lang... hwag mong damdamin lahat.... let it go... give it to God... give all ur burdens to Him... kung nahihiya kah sa Kanyah... akina... iaabot koh sa Kanyah.. lolz... alam moh naman pag sad kah u make meeh sad too... lolz... hey... i'll be prayin' for yah... magiging ok ka ren... gaya nga nang sabi koh madalas... ganyan lang tlgah ang buhay.... lungkot at sayah.... nagpapa-balance lang tlagah nang buhay yang emoteness na yan.... but u won't always feel dat way.... next day you'll feel fine again... tapos may days na sobrang sayah moh.... tapos balik emo uletz.. lolz... true joy tlgah comes from Him lang.... through simple things.... nde naman tlgah madali ang journey ditoh sa mundong itoh... but God didn't create us para magpakalungkot.... He all wants us to be happy... He created us to enjoy His creation... all His blessings for us.... don't focus on d' negatives... at i guess sometimes... hwag ren tayo gano mag-focus sa sarili naten at sa mga problema naten.... look around us... like sabi koh noon... if ur emo be a blessing to somebody... tignan moh... you'll feel way better... galing koh magsalitah noh... pag akoh emo... waaahhh... lolz.... but hey... hwag na maging sad ha... to ur mom... juz apologize... tell her how sori u r... and tell her how much u luv her.... sendali...etoh... ang advice ni pareng B i am Bong na sinabi koh ren kina kuya Ej and amor... baka mag-work den sau.... kc nag-work ren naman saken yan....

    ***inhale...
    ***exhale...
    ***inhale...
    ***exhale...

    yan... breathe marco.... akoh ren nag-inhale exhale.. wehe... you'll be fine... oytey... ditoh lang akoh... and andyan kah... wehe... *hugs*...

    God will never leave you nor forsake you....

    GODBLESS! -di

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    DHIANZ:
    Wow... Essay writing ba ito dee? hehehe...

    Anyway, thank you for the advices... haaayy... sakit ng ulo ko today... i can't think well... and i can't take a nap here in the office... what should i do ba? until now, i am feeling sad... i don't know what will happen next... haaayyy... i hate what im feeling now... naiinis ako... di ako mapakali... though, I believe its all my fault kaya nagkakaganito ang mga taong mahal ko...haaayy...

    teka, oo nga noh, i forgot to mention na nag-emo ka rin pala lately... teka... ma-edit ko nga muna... ayan... na-edit ko na...

    pero haayyy ano ba... magiging ok ba ang lahat today? i guess not... haaayy.. so sad...

    ok na kami ng INA ko.

    pero iba ang nararamdaman ko ngayon... haaayy sana magiging ok!!!

    parang gusto ko munang lumayo ng ilang araw... haaayyy ewan!!!

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    DHIANZ:
    yong aso na nasa image profile ko... aso yan ng pinsan ko... pinalitan ko na ang image profile ko kasi kung nakita mo ang old image profile ko... yon ang umpisa ng aking paglumbay ngayon. salamat ulit sa mga payo...

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  6. seryoso modeness muna akow kahit lateness nkow sa dutyness kow,anyways..fafa m bout ur mudra its a good thing na ok na kayow, normal lang naman sa rel nang anak at mga parenthood na mgkakatampuhaness, minsan nga lang dahil sa marufok na emosyones natin nakakapagbitiw tayow nang masasakit na salita, but ung mahalaga is that nakapgsorryness kana kay mamang.

    bout sa nasaktan because of the trhist thing, of which nakita ko dn naman kahapones, actually theres nothing wrong with that shirt kasi narinig kow yan kay ai-ai sa kanyang felikula,hakhakhak, cgurow kanya kanyang opinion lang yan, at iba iba ang uri nang taow at ugaliness,but then in a way you shouldnt feel super guilty kasi it was never your intention naman to hurt someone eh,the best thing is to talk to that person nalang so that maayos na ang mga bagay bagay sa mundow..blogness tow eh, expected na may mga kung anow anowng ka reactioness ang malalasap mow, thats it..youll be ok fafa m, sabi nga ni gurlalo dhi, inhale exhale and take a deep breath and sleep hahahha..lolness..tac lage fafa..

    FAFA PPRINT KTA TSHIRT MAS ASTIG TO EH ETO:

    "WLANG PANGET NA BKLOSH SA LALAKENG GIFIT"-- hahaha...o d ba?

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  7. Parang mahilig ka sa mga T-shirts na may mga prints, naalala ko rin 'yong nasa Friendster mo.

    Talagang pinaiyak mo pala ang Mama mo Mark?! Huwag naman ganu'n... Nag-sorry ka na nga pala sa poem mo.

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    AMOR:
    Salamat AMorness... hehehe...haayyy nalulungkot talaga ako ngayon... tae!!! haaayyy maayos ko pa kaya to?!

    RJ:
    Ok na kami ng INA ko Doc. Nag-sorry na rin ako. Salamat!

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  9. nakita ko lang yung ilang keyword.. pero babasahin ko to mamaya kung anu nangyari..

    ito ang pauna:
    tingin ko normal lang yan!
    atleast you've learned something..

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  10. Nalagay narin ako sa ganyang sitwasyon, at nalalagay hanggang ngayon, but everytime na ma e-encounter ko yung situation na yan, ako talaga nagpapakumbaba, syempre tama lang na mag sorry tayo sa parents natin kapag may mga mistakes, "lagi tayong nagkakamali, at di maiwasang may masaktan, whats important sa huli ay nakahingi tayo ng SORRY for what we've done, may mali man tayo o wala..." kaya cheers marco!!

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  11. fafa m maayus yan okers?bsta cheer up!

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  12. everythin will be alright..
    lalo't talagang you were really sorry for what you did.. lilipas din yan, makikita mo :d

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  13. i guess you're right... we need to think and rethink before acting especially here. too many different minds...

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  14. what's important is that you admit your mistakes and apologize for it.

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  15. MARCO is back in his normal mood hehehe

    anyway isa sa pinaka admire ko tao ang marunong magsabi ng thank you and sorry

    thank you dahil marunong mag appreciate

    sorry dahil marunong tumanggap ng pagkakamali

    nice attitude parekoy!

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  16. ibang klase pala dito kasi ang hahaba ng mga comment. hehehe

    well, wla naman sigurong anak ang hindi nagpaiyak sa mga magulang nila.

    I made both of my parents cry. mas bad ako. ganun talaga eh, nagkakamali rin sila... hehehe

    syempre, theres always a time para bumawi :)

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  17. ahhh yun pala yun..
    sabi ko nga normal na normal lang yan! halos lahat ng nanay na kilala ko, napaiyak na ng kanilang mga chikiting... minsan nga lang hindi natin nakikita...

    umiiyak ang mga nanay kase masaya.. super worried.. o di nman kaya nalulungkot... normal lang yan idol. sabi ko nga SuperNANAy ko, napaiyak ko na din..pero ang importaten dun, my natutunan ka... may natutunan tyu..

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    KOSA:
    Yeah, normal lang pero nakaka-stress…

    SAM:
    Nagsosorry na nga pero nasaktan pa rin ang damdamin nila. Anyway, thank you sa comment Sam. Have a beautiful Friday to you!

    AMOR:
    Im hoping Amor… Thanks!

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    YANAH:
    Sana nga Yanah! Salamat!

    LUCAS:
    Yup… iba’t iba ang mga pananaw ng mga tao ditto… kaya mahirap magpost o magcomment ng basta basta ng hindi pinag-iisipan ng husto.

    GILLBOARD:
    Oo… it’s my fault naman talaga e.

    MULONG:
    Hahaha… back to my normal mood huh? Adik ka dre!

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    CHRISTIAN BRYAN:
    Pahabain ba ng comment Bry? Hehehe…

    KOSA:
    Normal nga lang siguro but to think of it… ang sama nating mga anak!!!

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  21. Tagal kung nawala MArco - wala tuloy akong alalam sa mga nangyayari...ingats po lagi!

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    DH:
    Oyyy... tagal mo ngang nawala... at babalik ka rin... hehehe... musta pareng DH?

    Ingat din po kayo!

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  23. The LORD lifts the burdens of those bent beneath their loads. The LORD loves the righteous.

    PSALM 146:8 NLT

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    DHIANZ:
    Thank you, Pastora! hehehe

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  25. hope u feelin' better today... have a nice weekend... u probably will right?... =) ingatz!

    GODBLESS! -di

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  26. walang anuman pastor marco.. lolz =)

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    DHIANZ:

    My GOd! At kelan naman ako nagiging PASTOR... hehehe

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  28. nung mga panahon na nag advice kah nung emo si amorness... lolz.. =) na dehinz fair kc nung nag-emote akoh eh dehinz kah nag-preach... lolz... pero okz lang.. sabi moh nde ka maka-relate... mag-emo nga na makakarelate kah?...lolz.. jokeness... eniweiz nanguletz lang... =)

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    DEE:
    Sige, try to do some emo post... and i'll try to connect myself sa post mo... i assure you mahaba ang comment ko.... hahahaha

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  30. we make mistakes, we hurt people. it's unavoidable---wag lang laging dalasan ha dahil dina healthy. But at the end of the day, it's about how we make amends......knowing to do that requires great skill and a lot of humility.....glad you have it~~~

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  31. sige.. lookin' forward akoh dyan sa mahabang koment moh... iisipin koh pa ano ieemo koh... lolz =)

    lunch kah atah... enjoy ur lunch!..

    p.s.

    tsinelas moh daw naiwan moh kablo-blog-walking moh sabi ni poginess kuyaness CM... lolz...

    to kuyaness CM:... okz kah sa hirit =)

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  32. ay si dee palah kausap moh... lolz =)

    u okei na dee? how'z ur heart dee?

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  33. TO:

    PUSANGgala:
    Salamat po... God Bless!

    DHIANZ:
    naiwan ko ba ang slippers ko... akin na....kaya pala sakit na ng paa ko e... hahahaha

    DEE:
    hahaha... oks lang!

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  34. *inabot ang slipper*

    there u go... iwala moh uletz.. lolz... =)

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    DHIANZ:
    hahaha... adik talaga!

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  36. TO:

    DEE:

    Still not ok... sigh!

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  37. awwwww... again?... kala koh okz kah nah?... sori dee.. kaw agn kausap pero nakisabat akoh... lolz... =)

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  38. hey... take care alright... you'll be fine... GODBLESS! -di

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  39. pareng Mark Bad ka ha huhuhuhuhu. hehehehe. wag mo na ulit papaiyakin mama mo.

    nice nice.

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  40. ayos lang po yan.. at least alam mong mali ka^^

    di talga maiiwasan mag-kamali:)

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  41. lols
    masama ba tyung mga anak?
    nax.. ang sweet nga natin eh

    gantihan lang yan alam mo ba..
    yung mga magulang kase natin, pinaiyak din nila yung kanilang mga magulang nun kaya pasa-pasa lang yan!

    kaya ikaw, maghanda ka pareko.. papaiyakin ka din ng mga magiging anak mo... hahahaha

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  42. hmmm....emo kna rin pala kaibigan.. pero maganda yan! hmmm...sabi nga nila.. "natitiis mo ang iyong magulang pero sila hindi natitiis ang mga anak"... that's why kahit nasaktan mo ang mama mo, pilit ka niyang uunawain kasi anak ka niya.. at ska hindi naman nawawala sa kanila ang mga pangaral e...

    remember marco, ang mga magulang ang unang makakaunawa sayo at tutulungan sayo sa lahat ng problema na darating sa buhay mo. Hindi ka nila iiwan...

    *well, sometimes you must mining the other feelings of a person para dka makasakit ng damdamin..

    Keep Safe my friend!

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    DHIANZ:
    I'm ok now i guess... hehehe

    Thanks!

    ZEB:
    Oo na!!! Bad na ako... mali ako doon... hehehe kaya nga nag-SORRY ako e...

    STORMY:
    Salamat po... at nag-SORRY na ako sa Mama ko... kaya ok na kami siguro... hehehe

    bisita ka uli sa aking munting tahanan...

    KOSA:
    Ganon ba yon parekoy? Oo nga... ganon nga siguro yon... sabi nga nila... mararanasan mo rin daw kung ano ginawa mo sa mga magulang mo.... kaya humanda ka rin?! hehehehe

    MAYYANG:
    Yup! tama ka Mayyang... nag-sorry agad ako... di ko kaya e... nakokosensya ako talaga... nasaktan din ako sa ginawa ko sa Mama ko... pero ok na kami.... thanks!

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  44. fafa m daan lang akow dto hope youre ok na..tc lage!!Godbless you!!muah!!

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  45. fafa m daan lang akow dto hope youre ok na..tc lage!!Godbless you!!muah!!

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